you know how you are a slightly different person around different people and somewhere between all those versions there's one that nobody's ever met

that's kind of me lol i grew up in a rough environment a bit traumatic, something that gave me endless anxiety and a lot of problems along the way. im not even complaining because, honestly, it made me the way i am now. it made me adaptable as hell things like people, environments, pretty much anything. i've been like that since i was a kid. i've been on the internet too. it's genuinely the best thing that happened to me. i've done so much shit on there: doing things, building, breaking, learning, moving on, doing it again. you got to check the experience because that's a whole story on its own

but bro one thing about me is that i can't box myself. like do you ever actually think about that? did you ever ask yourself who you actually are? not what you do. not what job you do or what you're good at but who you are. i've been asking this my whole life (bro im 17 lmao) but still. i might not fully know but i've changed how i view the world and life a bit. i don't wanna wrap my identity for my whole life around the work i do or anything like that

i wanna explore. i wanna be curious and fucking learn. (might sound so cinematic but fuck it) i wanna do new things, experience different things as much as i possibly can, and not follow a script that someone else handed me and called it a plan. hell yea i wanna build, experiment, break, create and experience

i might still be going through an existential crisis right now but ill still do it anyway. like you don't have to figure it all out that's not even the point. “life” cannot be solved, its not a fucking equation. life is meant to be this way. weird. with that cantbeexplained feeling that you can't explain in words

that's me just being me. you don't have to be the same person your whole life. change is necessary, explore, fuck around, find out. took me 17 years and alot of trauma and crisis to understand that but here we are.

you should check the experience, projects and writings btw. and if you wanna talk about anything hit me up ↗